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Personal Log, 14 Apr 2004
Entry posted later
than dated due to time limitations Greetings, Well, a few things happened
today. Last night around 0930 I took half a milligram of Xanax, and I have to
say it damn nearly killed me. Within 25 minutes, I felt like I was drunk, I
couldn�t really move my arms, severely disorientated as I didn�t know where the
hell I was, and I was dizzy as fuck. Fortunately, I was on webcam with Michele
and she was able to contact my parents. Otherwise�I�d like to think that I�d be
fine but I can�t say for sure. It was tough for me to stay awake. Mom contacted
the ER and would have taken me there but there was a 3-hour wait as they were
swamped. When Michele called again, this time on my cell, she talked with mom
again, and they assured her that they�d check in on me but just try to let me
sleep it off. Obviously because of all of
that I didn�t go to work today, and I won�t be going tomorrow just to let my
system recover, and I also woke up because I�m typing this. However, when I did
wake up I wasn�t doing much better, but at least I wasn�t dizzy anymore. Mom
attempted to contact the doctor�s office, but no advial, all she could do was
leave a message. When we didn�t get a call back 2 � hours later, she just took
me back in. When I was finally called back, I vaguely remember the doc trying
to talk to me as I was being hauled back into an exam room. The doc checked me
out, made sure that I could at least lift my arms and legs, made sure there
were no other symptoms, then gave me a shot of Benadryl and sent me home to
sleep it off. The shot was to make sure that it wasn�t an allergic reaction,
but he thought that it was more of a deal where I�m just really sensitive to
drugs that affect neuro-transmitters like that. When I woke up, I had two
things about Nicki waiting for me. I had a letter from Nicki there, and an
email from her mother. The letter from Nicki was a pretty vanilla one, a letter
that was chatty for the most part. She was also telling me about how she had a
hard time on Sunday, because she had a nightmare in which me and my brother
Matt were killed. It bothered her so much that she was crying the whole time
that she was getting dressed and making her bed. The email from her mom was
three short sentences, and told me nothing except that she took some money out
of our checking account and that she was still having nightmares. I dear hope
to God that her mother had the good graces not to tell Nicki about my suicidal
tendencies, assuming that she�s read my journal. That didn�t bother me as much
as the fact that she called her mom instead of trying to call me. I figure she
thought that I was at work or something, but still. I�ve told her to at least
try because I would find a way to make the time to take her call. I�ve also
asked her to try to leave me a message because I want to hear her voice too,
but I know that she doesn�t get very many minutes to talk anyways, so�I�m
hoping that she tries to call me on Friday after she finds out what they�re
going to do with her, since I would normally have the day off. Full details of
the update that I sent out to my Nicki BMT distribution list can be found in
the Nicki BMT Updates section. I�ve decided that I can�t
just sit here and just write letters of support for her. It doesn�t feel like I�m
doing enough. I�m working on a webpage that will let people post messages of
support. I�m also going to access Nicki�s journal and post the details there.
What I�m hoping to do is find a way to make contact with all of Nicki�s readers
and online friends and have them post messages of support, so that I can print
them off and send them to her. I want her to never, ever forget that there�s
more than just her family rooting for her, and that everyone wants to see her
succeed in this, no matter how long it takes. I�ll write the details when I
have them. Michele and I talked again
tonight, and I educated her on the values of having a firewall on her computer
since she�s using DSL. I told her that an anti-virus program only kicks in
after her computer has been attacked, it doesn�t try to prevent the attack, and
that a firewall actually protects the computer against an outside attack,
before the virus or Trojan gets on the computer. I only told her a few tidbits
about hackers, and she�s going to pick up a software firewall this weekend. I
didn�t get a chance to tell her how I know a couple of hackers that have
written programs that will shut down your computer�s fans, and in turn, cause
those components to overheat and melt. Or cause the hard drive platters to keep
spinning and spinning so fast that they literally break. Believe me, hackers
can do some scary stuff. I was also watching this
program called �The Screen Savers� on TechTV tonight. It�s a program that talks
about technology issues, previews and reviews the newest in computer hardware
and softwate, and even provides useful tips and tricks to do for computers,
cell phones, PDAs, etc. Anyways, on this episode one of the hosts and one of
the tech guys on the show did a round of what�s called wardriving and warspying
out in Hollywood. For background info, some home networks and businesses use
wireless internet access, and because of the nature of how that works, hackers
or wardrivers can go around, find your wireless network, and unless you secure
and encrypt it, they can tap into your network and do whatever they want and
the attacks would be traced back to the hapless sucker who didn�t secure the
network. Wardriving means going around and finding unsecured wireless networks,
and warspying means going around and finding unsecured wireless cameras,
basically a camera that broadcasts its feed like a radio station, not through a
cable. Anyways, the two guys were picking on Hollywood stars, and the only one
that they could find that didn�t have a secured network was Tom Arnold. They also revealed the top
five Darkest Days in Tech History: 5. 5 March 1994 � Spam is
born when the law firm of Canter and Siegel advertised it�s green card lottery
services on Usenet newsgroups. They were roundly denounced for doing so, but
they began the crazed that filled up your email account with 300 new messages
when I set your computer back up. 4. Feburary 1995 � Hacker Kevin Mitnick was the first
person who was jailed for hacking. He was held without trial for four years, 11
months, and six days because he was considered a risk to national security. 3.
28 October 1998 � The Digital Millennium Copyright Act
was signed by none other than Bill Clinton into law. Among things most hated
about this is the fact that it created a loophole that prevents people from
having archival backups of their own music and movies. 2. June 1999 � The launch of the music sharing service
Napster. It was a huge hit by fans, until it was hit huge by a shitload of
lawsuits by the RIAA and Metallica. 1. 14 September 2000 � Microsoft released, are you ready
for this? Microsoft ME! Yes, the darkest day in tech history is the release of
noneother than Windows Millennium Edition. Tech TV said that it sucked because
it didn�t offer any real improvements over 98, but as you and I both know it
just sucks ass and it�s buggy as hell. Anyways, I�ve got to get to
bed. Out. Personal Exercise Log No exercises conducted due
to medical condition.
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